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拼搏，拼搏。
为什么总在拼搏，为什么不能很好的生活。为什么总是很累。
什么是生活习惯。什么是命运。是不是只有像我这种疲惫的生活的人，才会反复审视生命，命运之类。不敢和别人说。我知道这是不对的。
一直小心翼翼的生活的，小心翼翼的祈祷。在等待。生命的契机。

疲惫的。爱着生命。
生命，不哭。

Dear God, there is something called support, from the friends, from relatives, from the one who you love. When you tell the deepest thought of your heart, you always want to find someone to support you.Just like respectation. But when the one who you love, can not do the things you want, you feel what, disappoint? A better thing is that is not the first time. When the one you love just do the opposite thing which you wish, you, close your heart, keep silence.

Tonight, I feel close to you. I almost forget, ...............

HOLD THE WHOLE WORLD

 

For most of the time,we are always on the journey of seeking the question: who are we. What is the destiny of ourselves. Are we the babies of God, so that we can enjoy the beautiful scenaries around the world, smelll the grasses, and hear the songs sung by birds----breath the freedom and enjoy the wealth the God gives to us.

 

The exam is finished. The result? Failed. I could say that to myself. Only myself. I can not tell others I failed. What they want to hear is perfect, perfect for your health, perfect for the exam, for the job, the career, the mood, the family. Who knows me? Who can I talk the truth and feelings of myself? Your parents, your grandparents, your relatives, or your friends? Who? I still look for the perfect people who I can tell the truth.

 

Be strong. They will tell you. But how? Only weep when you alone, and smile in front of the other ones? Only say, I did a good job. Jobs are not always perfect, just like life.

 

Life is not perfect. That is why we call it life. Life is full of difficulties, has the dust, the clould, the dirt, the trash, and the carbbage. Life is full of shit. Do you like shit? You have no choice. Taste it. It is good.

 

I am a little girl, who can not stand too much. I took so many years to make it clear that I am only a girl. I am not a boy, a strong leader, a perfect one who can always finish the job before time. I can not take the family responsibility, I can not bear the pressure of the life, the laughter of strangers, the disregardness of the peer, the disrespectations of adults. But how can you do that ? God tells me to grow up, to acknowledge that things are always happening around you, behind you, and in front of you. When you can stand all of the things, you have been grown up.

 

No one wants growth. But you should take it. It is a part of youself, of life, of the things you MUST take. Stand up.

 

Let the strom be more heavy. You can win. Aren’t you?

 

I will, but I need time.

 

Ok, take it. But remember, all things happened around you have a certain kind of reason. There is no accident.

 

There is no accident. Exsiting means reasonable.

 

So, please, do not complain so much. If you make it, you will receive more.

 

NO WEEP ALONE.

NO COMPLAINS.

TAKE YOUR LIFE, AND ENJOY IT.

ENJOY YOUR LIFE.

 

 

I know there are so many things and friends I should remember all the time. Just because they love me and care about me. But what I am Pursuing is always what, these ones who does not know who i am. It seems that the important thing for me is to correct the direction, and make the notice of all the people i care about. I just do not want to be the person. I want to be the one in their eyes.

For so many years passed, I still have so few friends. I should laught at myself. I don not know who i am, what i really should do within my life, what i really like. For so many years, I want to be special. I want to stand up, ending up the bad memories about the little girl, about the these sadness. How can I do the things well ? why can i lead a happy life?

I want to ask the God. I do not know the real purpose of my living....